Going to India

This week I will be going back to India once again to see my mother.  I feel so fortunate to have that luxury.  I know that so many of you that read this have never met or know anything about your mothers or families and I understand the pain of those deep haunting soul-felt yearnings of something that seems so untouchable and out of reach.  It is one of the most primal needs that people have( in my opinion) in their lives, the connection to that person who carried you and birthed you.

When I spoke to a counselor about this, she said that you cannot help but desire for this connection because you know this person’s smell, their heartbeat, and their body emotionally and physically.  Who else can you say you have lived inside of and been sustained by?

As I make this journey I will take all of those adoptees, adoptive parents and biological families with me that understand this journey that we all go through with adoption.  Each individually in our own ways but also collectively as a support network of people who honestly care about human life and love.

Emotions flood my entire being as I realize that I am one of the few, the lucky, the fortunate that knows my family and my mother.

This journey is not only about returning and connecting but also we will be filming the documentary.  This has already been an exciting process and continues to get even more exciting.  I hope that the documentary in some way may help all of us who have suffered but also flourished to have a voice and a face in the world.  I will continue to keep working to get my story and others out in hopes of healing and transformation.

Also, to those who donated I am thankful.  I will be taking the money to my family to help them to move into a  rental rather than a purchased home.  I was hoping to raise more money but did not meet my goal.  We will continue to get donations through film festivals with the documentary this year so the goal is still possible!  Any of you who would rather I keep the money for the purchase rather than a new rental please notify me through a comment before November 30th and I will hold it for that but otherwise I will be taking it with me to help the family move into a safer and better rental for the time being.

Thank you for all of your support, I know without you there would be no me and I would not have the strength nor courage to do what I am doing!

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