Seeing the family…
Posted by Pushpa on December 16, 2009
We had a wonderful time and after all of these years of visiting I finally feel at home with my family. This trip was so different because I really let my ego go and put my family first. In the past I spent too much energy separating myself from them in fear of what may happen.
It has taken me all of these years to allow myself to let the walls down and become more a part of my family instead of someone separate from them that was just visiting. I came back with a peaceful feeling that I finally belong as a daughter, an auntie, a sister, a sister-in-law. It no longer bothered me that people asked why I didn’t speak Hindi or why they looked at me as a foreigner and why I had so many perplexed looks about why I was so Westernized. I finally came home…to my other home.
nirmala said
May it is because you have put down your thoughts on paper pushpa. I dont know its just a thought. I am so happy that you had a good time and the walls finally came down which is important for any mother and daughter (irrespective of the bio, adoption, natural etc status).
Shweta said
Cool pictures. I’m happy for you that you feel comfortable with your family now. I can imagine why you’d not want to feel let down the first few times around, good for you though that now it’s a good experience.